like i said, i'm totally manic....
last night was AMAZING! yesterday was a good day pretty much all day. i wore my new stripe dress and i know its shallow or whatever to be that excited about an article of clothing but seriously, wearing that dress made everything feel all the more positive. so yea, i went to class, and i got a 98 on my test! then i only worked for 3 hours, which was great. then, THEN, me, molly, skip, q, and kate got ready to go to ny. i was internally annoyed about having to drive, but it turned out great. i love the nj turnpike, i love driving through jerz. kate called our voyage a whirlwind tour of the tristate area. it felt really good to drive a route that i only knew a little bit and navigate everyone to hoboken. also, i led us to the venue and it was just so satisfying to know where to go, i felt very self-reliant and tough. we didn't get lost, nothing crazy happened, and i knew pretty much where to go. also, being in hoboken and on the path just felt so good. it made me think of being 17 and taking trips into new york on weeknights just for food or a show. being in new york overall felt great. when i'm not there i shit talk it and act like i'm over it...but when i'm there, it feels like home. it feels comfortable, and makes sense. i don't know if i ever could live there (probably not) but i definately want to start visiting more. there are so many amazing friends there and i really want to build stronger bonds with them.
the whole atmosphere of the show was amazing!! there were so many philly kids there and i was just elated to see everyone's faces. i love philly to death, and i'm damn proud of the communities we have here. i saw friends from various points in my life, which was another exciting part of the night. it was amazing to see sunny, someone i haven't seen in ages but has known me since i was 17. most of the people in my life have only known me a year, maybe two, and some as long as 4....and being around a few kids who have known me longer just made me feel ... like a real person, more grounded, self sufficient... i loved the crowd last night. it was so empowering and safe and fun. i wish shows had been like that when i was younger, it would have helped me so much.
team dresch was great! they opened with screwing your courage and closed with fagetarian and dyke! i almost died! they played so many goodies in between, and everyone was a sweaty, singing, happy mess. i screamed, sweated, and danced with beautiful, amazing friends and got a ton of bruises and a scratchy throat from doing so. i love everyone that was there and i'm so glad we shared the experience together. afterward, my mind was reeling from the amazing people, the music, all of it. it was a beautiful, wonderful night.
finally, there was a night where i felt pretty damn good the whole time. yes!